.. Sat night

Lazy night..

Book fair...

I went to book fair 2008 with mom. A lot of people were there.. A lot of interesting books.. It's good that i warned myself before i got there that i have like 50 "unread books" in my stock!! Anyway, i bought almost 10 new books back. Umm.. Have to allocate more time to let myself having "enjoy reading" moment as i did in the past when i live alone in a condo room..

Why do we have less n less time to do what we love? What a strang world.

Enjoy eating!

It's Friday night! What is better than having a good time eating nice foods. I found a new japanese shop at Central World. It's a sushi shop that let u pick what u want to eat from a moving tracking next to u. The fun part is having various kinds of good looking food moving next to u. It can't be anything else but heaven!!

Pictures will speak for themselves! Pim, i will surely be here with me on your next visit. I'm sure u will love it. Miss you.

All alone in the universe..

It's a strange feeling...



It's quite like a sadness.. But it's much deeper..



It's like when u want to cry but much different..



It's quite like the loneliness but it's not that hurt..



It's not a worry because it would be better to be on my own..



It's not the hatred because there's no anger..



It's just the feeling of an adult who understand how to survive on this world..



Some people would meant to be alone..



Some people are born a loner..



Some people are built to be strong, not because they want to be, but because they need to be.



Some people need to take care of themselves, not because they are better, but because there's no one there to take care of them..



Sometimes, we are who we are because we want to, but it's all because we HAVE TO!



Praise to all loners.. We are alone in our own universe.. Far away from others, inside the boundery that we set for ourselves..



Live with it.. No one can hurt you now...

Stuck in the BKK traffic..

Working in the city is not a fun thing, especially when u have to spend 3 hrs on the road everyday! After working hard, all want to do is getting home as quickly as i can. But it seems impossible. Traffic jam is the real creativity killing tool to me. (-_-)"

I read a blog of someone last night. He mentioned about a book that he just finished. On the book, the auther wrote that in this society, u can't expect honesty from people, since even us, we r not true to ourselves all time.

I'm thinking about this point. I agreed that sometimes we r not even honest to ourselves. But what i do woder is if human really have capability to aware of what we truely feel. Is there anytime that u ever feel that u r fooling with yourself because it's too hurt to accept the reality? Is there anytime that u feel like u don't even know what u really for your life? I think sometimes, we don't mean to be dishonest. We r just getting lost in our confused mind. Or may be, human is a spicie which is too intelligent so God just keep the balance by taking out the 100% ability to aware of ourselves out. Is it what we meant to be?

The cost of living here in Thailand is higher n higher these days! It's unbelievable that things change this quick. The price of butter is double up without prior notice.. We get used to the condition that we buy 30+ bht / liter of gasoline! Umm.. What will happen next?



My cats got vaccine couple days ago. They are still sick right now. It's an urgent case since there're a lot of cats were ill and went dead in the northern part of Thailand. My mom got all the cat got vaccine shots on the same day as the news was released! Pets are top priority here! :-)

Right VS Wrong...

Umm, the car accident case seems going well. The biker has to pay 400 bht fine first. It seems like a big money for him. He has only 100 bht. I want to pay for him but i didn't have a chance to say it out because the pollceman who takes care of the case offer to pay in adtance for him. It's a nice little thing that we can still see from thai people these days. Anyway, the guy still have to pay back those amount including the fixing cost of my car. It would not be a small amount at all. I don't feel well with this. I know this guy would have trouble with such a big money like this. It would cost the whole salary from him, while i could have less trouble with it. He is a good guy who is resiponsible for what he did. He was at the scene with me without complaining anything. Hope he won't have too much trouble with this. I wish good guys in this society would not have to suffer much..

I'm just wonering.. Is it better to let him go and i take care of 1000 bht to get claimed without having him pay that big money? However, it doesn't fair for the insurance company as well. It would not quite right to protect someone just because he has less money.. Or not? I'm a bit confused with my own thought. For sure, i feel a bit sad for what happened.. Sometimes it seems so hard to judge right or wrong in this grey world.

What a bad luck of me!

It's obvious that this time is not quite a good moment of me. Too many bad things have happened since late last year. Also today, i drove to work in the morning, suddenly, my car was hit by a motorbike! It's a pretty bad wound on the left back of the car. It's really waste of time since i'm stuck with this thing for couple hours and it seems to take a long while to clear this up. I'm now at the police station, waiting for the bike rider. The worst would be the fact that he is a police man!! Pray for me..

Anyway, it's good that blogger allows me to post new blog via mobile phone. It's fun to keep log of ur daily life even your are in a bad situation!! (i'm trying to stay positive... Ha ha)

Just one dead pixle...

Anyone who involves with Computer Graphic should be familiar with the term "Dead Pixel". If you you take a close look at your computer monitor, you will notice that the screen that we are using everyday actually displays everything by pixel. Everything that we see, is the combination of 1280*800 small squares (depends on your screen setting). Sharp and clear image can display because every pixel works properly... because each of them can display the right color. If any of them displays distorted color, we call it as 'Dead pixel'. Though it's just a very very small portion of the screen, strangly, we always notice when it happens and it's always annoyed us so much. That's why no one wants to it anymore when it's found on your monitor screen.

I went out to buy a new computer with my friend. We found one dead pixel on the screen. It's a red pixel right there... even on the black background. Only that pixel that didn't show the right color.. That's the reason why my friend needed to get rid of it right away. She took the computer back and ask for getting the new one. That computer would be treated as a bad machine.. because no one wants it anymore.. I don't know what would happen with it after it's got back to where it came from. The same thing is the same for human. Only one little falw, can be unexceptable and can be treated as unwanted in some society. It's so crueled world we live in. Or it's because we have too many options so people tend to seek for perfection. Who would want imperfect thing while they have chance to get better. But in reality, no one really knows what's the best that come into our life..

Have you ever thought that you would have dumped the best thing out of your life, just because you believe that there would be better thing comes? I don't know if I've ever done that before.. No one would know until the final day of life comes.. All I know, we people are still in search for more and more perfection.. I just wonder, where would be the end... when no one seems to have no idea what they are searching for..Should we throw away good things in your life, just because we find that little dead pixel when you don't really have 'undo' button! But sometimes you can't afford to keep everything... What is the best solution?? I have no answer for it too...

Cat on the ride

Mumu (my dear cat) is on a ride with me! We r heading to buy a special medication for Tongyod (my dog). He seems love the trip with me as always. You can surely see how excited he is from the photo.

It's not quite a productive day for my work. But i actually love living a simple life like this. It would be great if i can leave the rush of the city life behind n live somewhere far away. Dreaming.. Dreaming...

Shopping with mama

I'm at a super market with my mom & my aunty after the big japanese meal together. It's really fun taking them out for shopping. They are buying a lot of domestic stuff together.

It's hard to believe the the mall near my home is full with fancy stuff from oversea. I don't like shopping much but window shopping for these kind of stuff once in a while always make me enjoy my day very well.

Show off your warm heart!

It's now Sat afternoon. I have a plan to take mom out for a nice japanese lunch. Actaully, i have some work to do but.. Family is what we should allocate time to nurture it. Busy life in the city, always take ur time away from family. My mom is always left alone on the weekdays.. It's good to spend sometime to warm her heart up.
Don't forget to spend some of ur time care for the feeling of people around u. Our world will be a better place if we show more caring. Let's fill the earth with all the love in this world!

Ice cream festival 2008

I left the office around noon, went around to help Book (my staff) to
select a notebook from ComMarkt fair. It's fun to go out for IT stuff
shopping. Finally, she ended up buying the same model as I have right
now! But it's about 1500 bht. cheaper than I did. It's just 2 weeks
later!! :-(
After that I didn't get back to the office. I'm now a mall where a
fair named 'Ice Cream Paradise 2008' is held. I'm waiting for the
happy hour in 1 hour, which I pay 69 Bht for 1 Hour ice cream buffet
pass! It must be a real paradise then! :-)

Photos from ice cream fes!

Have you ever felt this way?

So many people are around you, and you still feel enpty inside?

Have so much love & care to give but can't find anyone who would love to get it?

Feel like you miss someone but in reality you don't have anyone left on your mind to think off?

Can't stop seeking for some kind of love that you don't really have?

You know in your heart that something's missed in your life but don't know how to fulfil the emptiness?

Everybody seems to find his/her shelter, except me....

Yes.. if it's the reality... accpet it.. live with it as if it's part of your life. It's not easy to get used to something that you are not looking for but eventually, it's better to accept it now...

No, it's not quite a hurt.. it's just a numb when you know that you are really all alone!!

Quite a strange feeling, huh??

My lazy & busy week

So many things to get done at work but i'm so lazy n can't stay well in focus. Fortunately, i have good support from my team. They r nice kids; without them, it must more difficult for me.
There're so many bad things happened with people around me. I hate to be in a situation that i see bad things but i don't have any power to get things better. All i can do is be strong outside n keep my weakness deep inside so i would be able to be source of energy to support them mentally.
In the evening, i had a weekly reunion dinner with friends. It's really a relaxed time. This is our first picture that i took during these busy weeks!

Take good care, everybody!

2008 is a tough for many of my friends in terms of thier works. It's
all impacted from the world economy that on it's way down. This thing
would go on for a couple of years. It's sad to see some good people
loose thier jobs, without a good reason.
I wish it wouldn't go any worse. But who knows! Especially when the
situation in Thailand is still not secured. All i can say, as a person
who works in financial sector, i would wanna warn my friends to take
good care of ur financial health. Save money n control ur material
wants. Let's get ourselves prepared for the coming tough moment.
Take care!