I spent my morning on adding Google Analytics code to this blog. This will help me see how many people come to my blog, what they read, where are they from, computer that they use, Internet connection that they are on... all of that info will be there for me. I reached to the point that I am so curious and really want to get to know my readers. (If any) I don't get any response so I have to rely on this trick... The easier way, if you read this post and are not too shy to say hi, please do not hesitate to say hello to me. :-)
Anyway, it's not too difficult to slot stats in. If any of you are interested on how to do so, just email me. I'm more than happy to guide you through.
At lunch, I got out to have a long lunch with younger co-workers here. Their choice is having pizza. It was well, except I somehow are going to loose my social skill. I found that going out to have lunch and maintain small talk is somewhat getting difficult as time passes. It took a lot of energy out of me for trying to be delighted & talkative during the 1.5 hr. lunch. I might spend time on my own for too long so I don't doing well when I have to be with my casual acquaintances. Do I need to pratice my social skill? I don't know... I just don't feel like I want to do so.
This makes me wonder what happens to me now. While I want to keep distance with people who are around in my life, but at the same time, I'm curious to know everything about people who just pass by to read my post! It's a big contradiction here, right? Why I want to chat with people that I have never known or seen before but want to avoid social occassion in my life? It was a while that I stop going out to friends' parties, wedding, dinners etc. and spend a lot of time try to communicate with people on cyber space. Have you ever feel the same that you find it's easier to speak your mind through writing but you feel uncomfortable to do the same with real person? I'm on Facebook and have some interactions with friends and have no intention to try to catch up with them in real life. I somehow pull myself out of Facebook social after people in real life start being there. I found myself stop writing about my feeling & my thoughts there.. What's wrong with me?
I think it's easier for me to share my thoughts and feeling to a total stranger through writing, because I don't have to worry if they will judge me. I might be afraid to get close to people in real life and let them see my weakness. Though I feel the feeling deep inside that I want to bond with other people, talk deeply about things, but I might never be able to do it in my real life. I remember the old days that I was enjoyed getting to know people from around the world through social web site like hi5, myspace etc. I was looking forward to hear from them everyday but again, there's no intention to meet at all. Today, I don't have that circle of friends anymore. There might be some kind of expiry date included with this type of connection. Because, at some point, those people just faded away from me with no reason. If any of them is here, they might scream from the other side of the world that they just get back to their lives!!! (which seems like I don't have it!)
Stay curious, folks!
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